This self-study explores the author’s mediation as a literacy teacher educator in the context of a professional development undertaking that involved developing and leading an early school years literacy course. The author examines the tensions that arose in the light of her own professional history and explore ways that the tensions led her to reconcile conflicting messages through processes of reframing. This self-study advances knowledge about teacher education in terms of its role in mediating connections between research, policy and practice, identifying some of the tensions that occur in this mediation and illustrating how, as teacher educators, we can use these tensions to reframe our mediation.